TRP is a post-Great War AU RWBY RP set in Mistral City and Haven Academy with no canons, no rank claims, no maidens, and no god interference. We offer a progression system and site-wide events that change the setting based on player actions.
Post by Bianca Sabbato on Apr 10, 2020 0:29:55 GMT -5
-Music is awesome, that’s a fact of life-
-So if you like to play an instrument or want a chill place to learn one without schedules or forced lessons, then fear no more. Books are open for the Music Club, and you’d have to be an idiot to let this slide!-
-So don’t be a wuss and join us at classroom ###-
—... Do it, you coward...—
Was I coming in too strong? It was a huntsman academy, so I figured the students here would not want a shy, half-assed invitation, but an assertive and direct request to get their asses over here.
Nodding proudly, I finished stamping the large handwritten poster on the board and taking almost a full quarter of the thing. “Now, let’s just wait for the fishes to bite the hook” With a slight smile on my face, I made my way to the classroom that would soon serve as a host for the greatest club this school had ever known.
But.. Well... At the moment it was nothing more than an empty room with a couple chairs, some instruments lying around and a single girl steadfastly standing over the door for endless minutes waiting for someone to come, before resigning to her fate and going grab a chair to fiddle with her scroll until the fabled time arrived in which for some miraculous reason a curious classmate decided to grace the room with its presence.
The internet was as boring as always, only interesting piece of news I could find was a thread made by some stupid bastard whining about Haven students not having their GED’s or whatever. -Huh, wonder what those things are. Maybe I should ask a teach later...- I said to no one in particular as I went to the door to check if someone was coming for the twentieth time that day.
The prospect of starting a music club seemed like a good idea at the time, even if we already have music classes as an optional. After all, common interests breed strong bonds, which on their own made for strong teams, which meant competition, which meant strong huntsman and huntresses in the log run. At least that was the theory, it had nothing to do with me being excited with the idea of forming a band and meting new people, nope. Nothing to do at all. Lies and slander all of that.
“Well... It would be a really lame music club if people were to pass by and hear no music being played whatsoever” Setting the speakers of my scroll to max volume, I selected a pre-made track list and readied my Violin to follow the music with my sheet resting in a small music stand lend to me by the school administration.
I started playing the notes of the first song for no longer that 30 seconds before deciding to change it. Too slow, too melancholic, I did not want to be known as the softie girl (And playing the Violin instead of something more aggressive like the drums or the electric guitar wasn’t doing any favors for me)
-Heck yeah! This is more like it!- I said, picking a fast and demanding piece and just going ham at it. Enjoying the heat building up on the muscles of my arm while my fingers jumped trough the board in a practiced and natural manner, and my bow made the chords wail and cry for me.
Rising from my seat, I kinda sidestepped to the door, keeping a delicate focus on my instrument as I managed to get close enough to open the door as wide as I could using only my tail. No use in playing if no one would listen to me beyond the locked classroom. So, I left it open for the whole world to hear.
Reaching the more serene part of the piece, I let myself relax as I returned to my seat. Somehow, playing had always served to calm my nerves, even to this day.
-Tsk, whatever... Even if no one comes, at least it's a nice place to practice on my own- I said, laughing at myself when I accidentally fucked up a note. -Damn, this thing is hard-
Post by Carmim Clover on Apr 11, 2020 3:45:50 GMT -5
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AURA: 100% TAG: @lizordfren NOTES: d r o m WORDS: 660 | TWC: 660
HAVE YOU SEEN HER? HAVE YOU HEARD? THE WAY SHE MOVES, THERE ARE NO WORDS
"Music... Club. Music Club!?"
The excitement had been tangible in Carmim's face as she read the fliers that were strewn around campus. She'd immediately rushed out to Lynn's office, to see if she could get permission to bring her drum to the club meetings, and was ecstatic when she was approved- after three long, hard, months, she was finally starting to get back some of her drum privileges. She still wasn't allowed to carry it around everywhere she went, but for Music Club meetings? She was approved!
Even though she'd adjusted well to the phantom limb feeling of not having her drum with her wherever she went, she had to admit, strapping it on again for the first time aside from combat training and Vytal felt like home.
She rushed as fast as her little legs could carry her to the room listed on the flier.
But which I mean, she checked every door along the hallway she was pretty sure the club was on. Eventually, she found it, three doors down from Gardenin Club. It wasn't hard to find it, either- just as she was getting close to her own club's room, she heard some very pretty sounds coming from down the hall.
And was immediately both excited, and suddenly apprehensive.
Violin.
It was an instrument with a storied past to her. Her mother played it, as did her brother, Granado. And when they played, it brought her a sense of peace, comfort, and serenity.
But it also reminded her of Eva.
The first person she'd met at Haven. Her best friend. Her first friend, in this strange, crazy, land, called Mistral. She played violin too. And unlike mama and Granado, she played music like this. "ze classical musik!" she had called it.
It made her sad, knowing that it probably wasn't Eva playing in there. It couldn't be- she'd thrown Lis Fleurissant at Carmim during their last argument about Qiu'li. Right before she left. She'd kept it there. By her bedside. Hoping someday Eva would return for it. Carmim couldn't make it sing the way she did.
She shook her head, brushing away the slew of sad thoughts assaulting her mind.
Nope! This is something fun. Happy.
She should be happy. She was getting better at being happy again. She smiled as she stepped through the door...
And her smile dropped into a big, excited grin, at the sight of the many instruments scattered around. She recognized a few of them, but otherwise, had no idea what most of them were! Some big chunky gold one that looked like a cannon? One looked like a giant violin, way bigger than she was! Another one looked like a stick, but fancier, and she felt like she recognized the big pile of drums on metal stands as a "drumset." She'd definitely taken Mrs. Long's Intro to Music class, and had definitely heard the names of all of these instruments before, but it was way different seeing them all in person. It was overwhelming.
And there was a new friend!!! "Hello!!! I am Carmim, it is so nice to meet you, my friend! I hope t'at I am not interrupting your violin playing! It sounds very nice!" She beamed at Bianca with enough warmth in her smile to melt the snowcapped mountains in the Cloud District.
She moved over to Bianca, her djembe swaying heavily against her hip as she walked. "What song is t'at? I have never heard it before."
As if realizing she'd forgotten something, her eyes shot wide open, bright crimson, as she almost-comically snapped and clapped her hands together, jogging her memory. "Oh! T'is is my drum, by t'e way! Storyteller. T'at is what I play! T'is is t'e Music Club, right? Can I join!?"
And so, the Music Club would have its second-ever member! An excited little puppy dog of a girl, staring up at Bianca with hope and excitement twinkling in her eyes.
LAIKA OF GS!
Last Edit: Apr 11, 2020 3:46:21 GMT -5 by Carmim Clover
SEM*: A, DURA: C STR: D Recoil: E, STAM: E, SAND: E WEAP: F, EARS: F
Post by Bianca Sabbato on Apr 11, 2020 20:32:24 GMT -5
-Well... Once again from the... Whoa!- I gotta admit, I was a little hiper-focused when the vivacious bundle of red energy made her entrance to the club room, so her sudden (Although welcome) Intrusion accidentally made me drop my bow, which I had to instinctual catch it with my tail before it fell to the door.
Heart attack avoided, I turned in the direction of the voice as I slowly came to the realization that, yes, in fact someone else had actually come to the music club!
-Heyo! What’s up girl? Please, come on in, you’re not interrupting anything serious, I was just killing time until someone came- I said leaving my instrument on the chair as I went to greet the unknown girl.
She seemed nice enough, if a little intense to put it lightly. —Name’s Bianca, nice to meet you too- I said trying to mirror her smile but failing midway trough as another heart attack threatened to overcome me for a completely different reason than before.
This girl... She was absolutely adorable, anything from her size and demeanor to the way she talked felt like enough to give me diabetes just from standing close to it’s very existence.
I didn’t fail to notice the instrument bouncing happily on her hips, It was a percussion one without a doubt, some kind of drum I was not familiar with, this immediately picked up my curiosity.
I managed to react in time to answer her question tough. -Oh. It’s called “Winter”, It’s an old piece made by a composer named BiBaldi to represent the season of winter, he also made one song for each of the other seasons but this is my favorite of the bunch- I replied as calmly as I could even if on the inside I was really excited to have someone around to talk about music.
So a new recruit was looking to join files with the club, well, then there was only one thing to do.
-Storyteller’s a killer name for an instrument by the way- I said approvingly as I started to make my way to the professor’s desk with a smirk, procuring a form from one of the multiple drawers on it.
Come to think of it. I’d never named my violin before. Maybe should I think of doing it on the future? That aside, I the papers and pen laying on the desk, ready for Carmim to sign up whenever she wanted.
-Of course you can join the club! We are looking to get new members among our ranks... Still, there is one last order of business before you join- I said taking a comfortable seat in front of her.
-I can tell you’re no amateur, so you’ll understand that you’ll need to pass the rite of initiation before joining any gang- Smiling impishly at the girl, I proceeded. —And this means you’ll have to play your instrument for the whole club before you join!-
Of course, “The whole club” Was basically me and no one else at that point, but those were just details.
-So why don't you make yourself comfortable so you and storyteller can show me what you can do- I said with genuine excitement as I wondered how this new girl would surprise me with her foreign instrument.
Post by Holly Hock on Apr 21, 2020 10:35:29 GMT -5
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The excitement had been tangible in Holly's face as she read the fliers that were strewn around campus! There was another club! Finally, after months of being the solitary after-class activity group in Haven, there was a second one! The flyer had a more aggressive tone than the one for the Gardenin Club, but hopefully many people will join up and the club will be a success! More clubs meant that the school would pay more attention to clubs, and maybe even expand the budgets! When Holly was selling fruit, money wasn’t much of an issue, but now that she was giving a lot of it away to the school AND to the Peasant Party, they could use a better flow of income. [break] [break] So, to make sure that this new club felt welcome, and maybe to provide some valuable assistance in how to run a club, Holly had prepared a fruit basket. But not just any fruit basket, it was THE MOTHER OF ALL FRUIT BASKETS![break] [break] IT HAS BABY-BANANAS (Baby-nana, patent pending)![break] [break] IT HAS APPLES![break] [break] IT HAS GRAPES![break] [break] IT HAS WALNUTS![break] [break] IT HAS BREAD MADE BY JACK![break] [break] IT HAS A TINY WATERMELON![break] [break] AND EVERYTHING WAS IN A NICE LITTLE PICINIC BASKET THINGY WITH A BOW ON TOP![break] [break] Holly sometimes made fruit baskets, but this must honestly be one of her best. Perhaps it was the prime example of what a fruit basket should aspire to be. Tales could be told to little baby-fruit baskets on how to be this perfect when they grow up…or get…made…uhm…[break] [break] It is just a really nice fruit basket, ok? When you deal with fruit on a daily basis, the act of putting it neatly in a basket is like having a special fruit-occasion. Like dressing up your children for a school photo-kind of moment. Only children usually don’t get eaten at those kinds of things…Holly thought though she has never had a school photo like on those sit-coms. [break] [break] So, dressed in her school uniform, Holly walked over towards the Music Club a few doors down from the Gardenin Club. She knew where it was as she took notice when a lot of instruments were being transported through a hallway that she practically used daily. Though when she stood before the closed door, she waited a moment when she heard talking inside the room. If they were in a meeting, or if a new member just arrived, should Holly wait? She could wait a few moments, could she not? It was not –[break] [break] Was that Carmim?[break] [break] Was that Carmim in a clubroom?[break] [break] Was that Carmim in a clubroom other than Gardenin Club?[break] [break] Huh.[break] [break] What is this feeling?[break] [break] Hmm.[break] [break] Holly had a feeling to throw the fruit basket out of the window, but she wouldn’t do that to her babies. They were supposed to be eaten with joy on people’s faces. Carmim liked music. Maybe she was just going to take a look in another club, right? Nothing to worry about. It wasn’t like Carmim would leave Holly like Ryan left Holly, or like Solomon left Holly, or how Holly left her family, or like…[break] [break] The pinkette opened the door, the large fruit basket kept in front of her. Magenta eyes scanned the room, identifying the girl Bianca and Carmim. Holly did a cautious step forwards, her bare feet barely making a sound on the floor. Coming in just after Bianca asked for a demonstration of Carmim’s musical talents to join a club, Holly had heard enough. She stood awkwardly for a moment, before she spoke up before any music could be played. Turning her full attention towards Bianca, Holly didn’t even address Carmim as the pinkette passed by the traitor sand gnome.[break] [break] “Holly Hock here, Gardenin Club president! I have come to offer you a gift of friendship from another club! It is a fruit basket!” The only member of the Gardenin Club that held any form of president title looked around the room, still not seeming to even have noticed Carmim. There as a fake smile on Holly's face, which was honestly still cute as heck and not easily distinguished from the truth. She still wanted this club of traitorous snakes to succeed to get more money for the club program. “How is the club coming along? You are, Biance, right?”[break] [break] Pronounced without a fault as Beyoncé, no matter if that was actually how it was supposed to be said. That bitch stole Carmim with the power of music. Just switching clubs without telling or addressing it. That was like…a dirty move. If you are in a club, you are in it for ever…or if you are like…kicked out. You don’t just join multiple clubs! What is that for madness! You share a common bond of trust and respect and loyalty! The only way you are supposed to leave clubs honourably is in a body bag![break] [break] Holly was thinking about gangs.[break] [break] She still felt betrayed, though.
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Post by Bianca Sabbato on Apr 22, 2020 5:11:51 GMT -5
Just when Carmim was about to respond to my challenge, I felt a very familiar feeling deep in the center of my guts, that very same sensation of danger some animals feel in the presence of a predator. Or, to be more honest to myself, the same gut feeling I always got when one of the assholes of my teachers would hide on a trash can only to jump-scare me when I passed by and trow a wrench at me.
Rising to my feet, my hands instinctively reached for my back in search of a spear that wasn’t even there. And as my heart rate begun to spike, I couldn’t shake the feeling that something bad was approaching.
Scanning the room with my eyes, I finally recognized the source of my restlessness in the form of a petite girl slowly making her way inside the club room.
Calming my nerves a little, I took a cursory look at the pink haired girl and relaxed once I noticed she was not armed in any way. Loudly clearing my throat, I prepared to give her one of the practiced welcoming phrases I had coined for my club.
-Heya there! Looking to join the most awesome club this school has ever seen?-
I immediately wanted to shove my foot on my mouth once she told me she came in representation of the gardening club (Wait, there was a gardening club?) Anyway, I manage to prevent my smile from wavering more than just a little.
Inspecting the girl and her gift more closely, I saw that she was walking barefoot, so I knew I was facing a woman of culture there. And she had given me a token of respect for intruding in my turf in the form of the fruit basket, so I had to give it my best to impress her.
The basket by itself looked gorgeous to the point that my mouth started watering just from the smell of the freshly baked bread and sweet aroma of the delicious looking grapes and other fruits present on the cute looking gift.
-Ohh, Jeez. I wish I could give you something in return, but the instruments are not mine so... I got an idea, why don’t you stay for a while, and we play something for ya? Does than sounds good?-
I said putting the gift over the same seat I had been using up to that point, grabbing a tempting walnut and cracking it in between the flats of my hand, savoring the oily, bitter goodness of it... Wait... Was that a banana?.
Grabbing the small fruit between my index and thumb fingers, I gave it a curious look before starting to peel it off to see if it was real.
I was in the middle of that when a thought came to me... I was kinda being an asshole eating all of that by myself. —Hey Carmim, Holly. Do you want to share this with me? It’s too much for me anyway- It was then when I actually looked at the two girls side by side and started noticing the similarities between them.
They were both really tiny girls even compared to myself, they had reddish/pinkish looking hair and eyes and in a very general manner, one could say they had a similar... “Feel” to each other.
What was Carmim’s surname again? I didn’t think I caught it but might as well had been Hock...
But even considering that... Strangely Holly was acting as if Carmin wasn’t even there, this attitude baffled me at first, until I remember something I had never experienced first hand but had seen plenty of times on my life.
Turns out, sometimes, feuding siblings tend to do all that “Silent treatment” stuff, so I figured this was one of those cases...
I was certainly surprised when she butchered my name... But then again, if she was actually Carmim’s sister then it shouldn’t come as a surprise.
-Were are my manners, I am, but is actually pronounced Bee-Ah-N-Kha- I said with my best smile while adopting a more relaxed posture. -Things are going as well as they can considering I just opened business, I already have good old Carmim here wanting to join, so I'd say it's doing great-
-And nice to meet you too, Holly... Are you Carmim’s sister by any chance?- People like when you pay attention to details about themselves, so with that phrase I was sure to score some points with her, absolutely no way it would backfire.
After all. She seemed nice enough even if she had scared me a little with her entrance... But somewhat, deep inside I couldn’t shake the feeling something was very wrong with the whole ordeal.
Post by Carmim Clover on Apr 22, 2020 7:13:40 GMT -5
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AURA: 100% TAG: @hahacan'tpossiblymakethismoreawkward NOTES: The Day Holly Learns About Polyamory WORDS: 965 | TWC: 1625
HAVE YOU SEEN HER? HAVE YOU HEARD? THE WAY SHE MOVES, THERE ARE NO WORDS
"Oooooooo..."
She had no idea who BiBaldi was! Or what a composer was, for that matter! She knew the Gardenin Club used a bunch of compost, though. So the song she played was made up by some guy who made compost? That was kinda weird, but Carmim could accept it! She, too, had a passion for both all things musical, and all things vegetable.
It also took her a second to process Bianca's compliment towards her drum. Killer...!? She would never use her drum to kill people!! Never! She got a little scared for a moment, actually, thinking that Bianca had been at the assembly, all the way back in January, when she'd blown up the wall, and got her drum taken away (or well, she wasn't allowed to carry it with her- same thing!)
She'd only just gotten permission for Music Club!
That wasn't fair that even the Music Club President was bringing up all of those mean, horrible, memories!
But then she realized that Bianca wasn't actually there then- she seemed like a new transfer, and what's more, even if she had been there, it was definitely phrased like a compliment. So after a very confused moment, Carmim smiled again. "T'ank you so much! It is my family's ancestral drum- it is very old, and full of good music!" She beamed with pride, which turned to excitement as Bianca said she could join.
But then the catch!
Oh, she knew there would be one! There was always a catch!
"Tell me, tell me! Whatever it is, I can do it!!" In retrospect, hopefully it wasn't going to be anything too crazy or illegal... But she still wore her very best, most serious, face as she boldly stated her willingness to go above and beyond for the call of the Music Club.
But then, when Bianca unveiled the big initiation rite... She was decidedly caught off-guard a little bit.
It wasn't that she didn't want to play her drum. It wasn't even like she couldn't or anything.
But now... Now that she was finally allowed to carry Storyteller again, for the first time in so long...
She was nervous.
A lot nervous, not a little bit.
Because what if she messed up? What if something surprised her while she was playing, and she lost control, and then BOOM, no more ceiling, and what if there were people up there, what if they got hurt?! Or what if Shadecloak ran by the room and yelled mean things at her while she was playing, and she accidentally hit Bianca with her semblance!? Or what if she was SO scared and nervous about playing, she couldn't play anything good at all, and then Bianca wouldn't let her in the club, for sure, or what if Shadecloak and the Headmaster BOTH ran by the room and said mean hurtful things, and then took her drum away because she wasn't a member of the Music Club when she tried playing it!!
Luckily, she didn't have to contend with those worries at all, because at some point between the first time Shadecloak ran by, and the second time, Holly had entered the room with a delicious-looking basket of bribes.
Or at least, that's what Holly had called one of her fruit baskets one time, when she was doing a very funny, very silly, hardboiled crime girl impression once. It was a very good impression, and Carmim had commented on the video with her very best "LOL" so Holly knew that it was a really funny joke.
She tuned back into the conversation just as Holly was introducing their club.
Oh! Right! She had totally forgotten that she knew all about Bianca's club, but her new lizardy friend had probably not heard about the Gardenin Club yet!
So Carmim jumped into action, standing at attention right next to her trusty leader, Holly "Hoppin Henry the Hippo, Have a Happy Holler at all those Herbs!" Hock. Name patent pending, of course. She saluted with a proud grin on her face. "T'at is right, I almost forgot to tell you! I am also t'e Vice President of Holly's Gardenin Club! Wit'out t'e G, of course."
Poor thing... Completely oblivious to Holly's scorn and disappointment. "Also hi Holly! Did you come to join t'e Music Club too!?" She didn't get an answer before Bianca corrected her name to Holly, who Carmim was pretty sure must have said it weird while she was distracted, and then asked if they were sisters.
She turned to face Holly, looking the slightly-taller girl over. She didn't have as many muscles as Carm had, and her skin was a good few shades lighter, and also her hair was pink, and her eyes were pink, instead of red, but honestly, it was kinda close. The most striking difference was probably their clothing, and that wasn't saying a lot; they were both wearing the school uniform, but Holly was wearing the skirt, and Carmim was wearing pants. And neither of them were wearing shoes because shoes sucked, and nobody liked them.
At least, Carmim didn't like them, and she gave an approving nod at Bianca's feet upon noticing that she, too, was more powerful than a hardwood floor.
Foot freedom forever!
She blinked before smiling brightly, laughing just a little at the question after having taken a moment to process it. "No, Holly is not my sister! But she is my very great friend! And my President! I was there when she swore herself into office! It was a very cool moment in Gardenin Club history."
She gasped, suddenly thrilled by this idea, and slightly relieved at the welcome distraction. "Me and Holly should swear you in as President of your club!!! T'at would be so much fun!"
LAIKA OF GS!
Last Edit: Apr 22, 2020 7:14:29 GMT -5 by Carmim Clover
SEM*: A, DURA: C STR: D Recoil: E, STAM: E, SAND: E WEAP: F, EARS: F
Why would I want to hear your stupid music, you friend stealing hooligan? Sure, crack that walnut with your hands you damned savage music monkey. Why do you not just spit in my face while you are at it, enjoying my delicious looking friendship basket you dirty, dirty- [break] [break] Holly stopped herself from thinking such thoughts for a moment, as she had forgotten to respond to the offer. If Carmim hadn’t been in the room like the backstabbing snail that she was, Holly would have gladly accepted the offer without any ulterior motives. She didn’t care that much for music, but as a purely diplomatic act between two presidents, she would have stayed without a question. She sounded nice, though Holly’s annoyance became more and more apparent with her word choice. “Maybe another time! I was busy with *my* club and I just wanted to pop in for a moment to give you this. We don’t all have time to sit around and listen to music, I am afraid!”[break] [break] The pinkette just nodded her head with a smile at the offer to eat from the gift that she had shared. Why would I want to eat the stuff that I gifted you, when you already touched it all with your manly, greasy, musician hands? Holly still took an apple from the basket to keep up appearances though. She didn’t want to seem rude.[break] [break] When Carmim came to stand next to Holly, the president did acknowledge her by turning her head towards Carmim and her eyes turning big. Was Carmim not here to join this other club? Was it maybe an attempt to scout the competition? See how they could get a tactical edge in club related rivalry? [break] [break] Oh, you clever girl.[break] [break] Holly gave a smug smile as she placed her hands on her hips when Carmim addressed herself as vice-president, and that she was still her loyal right-hand girl. I misjudged you Carmim, I am sorry, and I will make this up to you. I will feed you so many toma-[break] [break] "Also hi Holly! Did you come to join t'e Music Club too!?"[break] [break] Oh, You stupid dust-gnawing turncoat of a…[break] [break] Just as Carmim dashed all of Holly’s hopes and dreams that Carmim was loyal, Holly gritted her teeth as she was barely able to maintain that smile on her face…or like…did not started screaming or pulling hair. She was in full mean girl mode of faked pleasantness as she responded to Carmim. “No, Carmim, as a president it is actually not allowed for me to also join another club. Don’t let that stop you though, as I am certain that you can combine two clubs with your academic skill set and ability to multitask.”[break] [break] Why Holly was at her smartest when she was using her powers for bitchiness? Maybe she was never that dumb to begin with. When Bianca acknowledged and confirmed that Carmim truly was her to jump in the bed of another club, Holly clenched her hands tightly to the side of her body as she seemed to be close to exploding in a tantrum. Her fingers dug into the apple, its succulent juices spewing out and on the ground. She was on the edge, and not a lot would be needed to finally push her into the deep end. [break] [break] “We are not related.”[break] [break] It was all that Holly said about the few similar traits that the girls shared. There was a time when Holly could accept Carmim as a sister of sorts, but that honestly changed when she became a murderer. Or…and accomplice to murder. That was honestly also the reason why Holly was this irritated by this whole situation.[break] [break] She was convinced that she was the reason Carmim would want to leave the Gardenin Club. [break] [break] Holly wasn’t a great friend to Carmim after everything that happened. The pinkette had never ignored Carmim, or even shunned her for what she did. They well…they hadn’t really ‘talked’ about what happened, nor had Holly shown much emotional support for everything that Carmim went through. Holly would have had accepted Carmim not liking Holly for not being there for her. She could have accepted Carmim walking up to Holly one day as she said: ‘You are a bad fren, and I leave plants to you now. K, bye!’ Or, something like that. Carmim spend a lot of hours caring for the plants, but the two of them mostly worked around each other instead of truly together after Rochdale. They both knew what to do in the club, and they could keep it up with the occasional help from Rose and others who aided when they felt like it. [break] [break] What Holly couldn’t handle was Carmim just joining another club without even telling Holly. Her just making this decision to end one thing and start another without even informing the president of your current club. Like…would you just leave the club of your friend, or…ex-friend, and join another one without saying it? Without even leaving a note? It…it was not like Carmim owed Holly much but just…[break] [break] Just…[break] [break] Ryan had tried to shoot himself without telling Holly or leaving a note.[break] [break] And now Ryan was nowhere to be found in Holly’s life.[break] [break] Was this going to be the same? Carmim joins another club. She has way more fun with this bitch Bianca who does not judge you for being a murderer who hangs up people on chains and hooks. She will no longer want to hang out with Holly, and Holly will loose yet another person in her life.[break] [break] Because she was not a good enough president.[break] [break] Because she was not a good enough friend.[break] [break] Because she truly was a horrible person just as Nasrin and Rin had said that she was.[break] [break] So, when Carmim started to spew out that Holly was a great friend and her president, Holly couldn’t connect the image that Carmim had of her with her own self-image. Miss Hock was not in the state of mind that she could believe Carmim’s words to be the truth, so she must be lying. She must be putting up a face. She must be bullshitting to spite Holly. [break] [break] Sure, let the horrible person who is horrible swear in your replacement friend, Carmim! What a great idea! You know what, why don’t we also give her the Gardenin Club and make Bianca double president? Why not triple president as she can now also lead the bitch club of Bitchington? She is your new friend and president, isn’t she? You can leave me without telling me, so why not strip me of my title? Why not strip me of everything? You want my clothing? You want my semblance? You want my room?[break] [break] Holly was not thinking straight. She came here to bring a cute fruit basket, and now she was questioning a lot in her head. She was overreacting hard, sure, and if she had taken a moment to breathe and think this all through, she would most likely have explained her feelings and they could probably work this all out. This was not a situation that couldn’t be turned around.[break] [break] Instead…[break] [break] The pinkette turned towards Carmim, her face now completely blank and her voice without emotion as she said words that she would come to regret.[break] [break] “You assaulted a person and hung him from the ceiling like a piece of meat. You were partly responsible for the dead of hundreds of lives that could have been saved. I…I could never look you in the eyes the same after that day. I have failed you as a president, as a classmate, and as a friend.”[break] [break] Holly dropped the apple she had almost squeezed to death just a moment ago, the apple corpse falling on the hardwood floor with a thud. Magenta eyes looked at Bianca. [break] [break] “Be better for Carmim than I have been. Good luck with your club….I…uhm…I don’t even care anymore.”[break] [break] Her voice and expression were one of apathy. Holly sounded defeated, and the only person who she had to blame for that was herself. What is even the point of getting mad if you are the problem again and again? Nasrin hates you because you are horrible. Ryan tried to kill himself because you were not a good enough girlfriend. You are a horrible combatant because you are not fierce enough. Solomon hates you because you told him to leave once. You are horrible to Rin, you are horrible to Niraya. Maybe you just had to believe at a point that they are not the problem, but you are the problem.[break] [break] Holly Hock’s greatest enemy was always her own heart, and how easily the girl let it sway her every action.[break] [break] Maybe Ryan had the right idea on how to deal with the fact that you are a problem.[break] [break]
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Post by Bianca Sabbato on Apr 22, 2020 10:21:55 GMT -5
I noticed how the Hock girl casually insulted my music, like the bitch was above me because she knew how to grow plants. Big fucking whoop, everyone can grow stupid plants, It’s not exactly dust science.
Even so, I decided to be civil about it, not everyone had to like me or my hobbies for me to be nice to them, so I’d let it pass for one time only...
-Gardening without a “G”? Like... Ardening?- I questioned a little confused at my new companion’s outburst. And apparently they weren't siblings, so I guess that was a fuck up on my part, but it wasn’t like similar people couldn’t coexist without being related.
On the other hand, I had to admit I really liker Carmim’s idea of swearing as a club president. Even tough It might be a little silly, I was in the mood for some innocent fun once in a while. A little bashful, I answered her question.
-Well, I you want, I wouldn’t mind, making it official and stuff... And while we’re at it, since you’ll be the second member I guess we can make you the vice president as well! I mean, If you’re cool with that- She probably would! And even if she didn’t want it, I lost nothing just by asking, and I could have used a hand or two to help me get things running.
-At least until I get more members... Maybe I could invite Artur... Oh, and Ryan!, after all they are on my team for vital, so they may want to help- I remembered just in time, I probably should message them later about it.
When the strange girl started talking in a cold, dead tone, I was confused at first, until I slowly started to process the meaning behind her words.
I started shaking as I listened to her, each and every word and sentence piercing my heart like little poisoned needles... Hanging in the ceiling like meat... Like meat... Any will do, an ear or an eye, a finger or a bone... Anything that serves as a proof.
Go for it Bianca, do it or never come back.
When I recovered from the initial shock, I was surprised to find that my hand was locked firmly into Holly’s jacket, around the zone of the collarbone and squeezing so tightly my knuckles had started becoming white from the pressure.
She wasn’t speaking to me... Don't worry girl... She wasn’t speaking to me, but to someone else, but who? Carmim? Had she...?. Doesn’t matter, that’s a discussion that I didn’t want to have, at least not then and there, probably never.
I didn’t know what kind of face I was making, but I didn’t wanna find out. I let her go as I started to notice another, much more subtle phenomenon in the room.
The dirt, the little particles of soil around her feet, the tiny layer coating the top of the cabinets, the particles in the air entering from the open door, even the small plastic bag I always had with me in my uniform skirt.
All condensing, not into a solid form, but into the finest cloud of dust, undetectable and intangible, floating serene around me like the stars on the firmament... When I finally figured out what I was unconsciously trying to do, I gave a step back in horror, an audible gasp escaping my lips as I panicky started dispersing the surrounding earth... Pushing it as far away from me as possibly, out of my semblance reach entirely if I could.
Catching my breath, I manage to listen to her parting words with a scornful look on my face. After all that, after bringing back all that... Disgusting, horrible shit... She just goes away without a care in the world.
-And then you just go? After coming to my club and spewing all that crap you go away like nothing? At least stay and explain yourself dammit!- Deep breaths, Bianca, deep breaths... Don’t get violent. Don’t let yourself be trampled on but don’t attack her...
-I was just here, happy because someone had come to give me a chance... I mean, to give my club a chance, and then you come in, give me some stupid basket...- My tail wiped to my side, striking the fruit basket dead center and sending it topping into the floor. —Insult my music, and then start insulting Carmim in my own fucking club room?- I was livid, but I wouldn’t let it take hold of me, even if I wanted to rip her head of.
-I’m not one to go seeking out fights, but if you want to trow down we can go get a teacher and solve this like ladies with real ovaries instead of trowing backhanded insults like a petty bitch-
HAVE YOU SEEN HER? HAVE YOU HEARD? THE WAY SHE MOVES, THERE ARE NO WORDS
To her credit, Carmim wasn't at all discouraged, or even off-put by Holly's Heather Dukeish behavior (namely because Carmim has no idea what a Heather Duke is, or why Holly is acting like her all of a sudden). As Holly politically explained away her reasoning for not joining Music Club, she just nodded, with an understanding "Oooohhhh. Okay! T'at makes sense! Do not worry, Holly, I will definitely be doing the multitasking very good!" And completely oblivious to what have otherwise been a dirty stab at her lack of education, she gave a chipper little thumbs up, before turning to Bianca to respond to what she was saying about the club name, and the making her club official thing.
"Yes! Or well wait, no. Not t'at G, t'e ot'er one! Gardenin Club!" She listened intently as Bianca so boldly laid out the Vice Presidential position to her. That was a big honor, and her initial instinct was to accept it immediately, possibly with some secret spy shenanigans, or some other such silliness, but instead, she just shook her head with a smile. "No t'ank you! I am sorry, but as I am already t'e Vice President of one club, I do no t'ink I can be t'e Vice President of two clubs! T'at would be too much power for one person to handle, I t'ink."
Imagine... The power to mismanage TWO budgets!? Organizing not one pizza party, but TWICE THAT MANY pizza parties!? In ONE WEEK!? Madness! Absolute insanity!
Bianca started talking about her teammates, but Carmim's mind drifted to Holly, who had abruptly shifted tones and was talking very... Not right.
But her confusion didn't last past the word "you," because the second word was "assaulted," and Carmim froze up, her eyes going wide.
That didn't seem to stop Holly from speaking, though, so Carmim simply turned around, took off her drum, and set Storyteller against the chair near her, before turning back to Holly...
Just in time to see Bianca grabbing her by the shirt!?
Carmim moved quickly (largely because she didn't have to move very far), and without stopping to consider anything else, like the fact that Holly had just been berating her, and saying the most horrible, terrible, things she could have possibly said, or that Bianca was her new friend, and she wanted to make a good impression.
One hand on Holly's shirt, and one on Bianca's wrist. She didn't look up from the ground, even as she easily pried the two girls apart, with firm, impassable, strength. She was strong enough to lift an entire Sabyr over her head, so however tightly Bianca was gripping Holly's shirt didn't last very long, and as soon as the two were separated, Carmim let go and put her hands down at her side.
Only then did she look up, right at Holly, who had just turned her back to her. Her face was red with anger, and wet with tears, but she was holding her composure as well as she could. Bianca was saying a bunch of stuff, and she was getting angry too, but not the same way that Carmim was angry.
She waited until Bianca finished yelling, and her voice was soft, but tense, with a careful amount of restraint. "Holly... You are dumb like you have a head full of cabbages. And not like your cabbages which are very delicious and tasty, but like the duck noodle man's cabbages which taste like socks." She spaced each word out carefully in that sentence, and was honestly really proud of herself for that.
It wasn't exactly a very mean insult, and frankly, she didn't want it to be. But she did want to get across her point that Holly was acting like a total cabbagehead right then.
"Nevermind t'e Rochdale stuff right now. Even t'ough what you said was not a t'ing t'at is true!" She felt like voice rising a little in volume, so she paused for a second before continuing, still talking at Holly's back, unless she'd turned around by then. She would have even followed Holly out of the room if she had to, to get her point across, because Holly was being dumb, and mean, and a jerk, for no reason, but mostly just really, really, dumb. "I do not know why you are saying so many horrible t'ings, but you can not say t'at you failed me as a president, or a classmate, or a friend! I do not even know what you are talking about, but t'at is no way for you to be acting in front of our new friend! T'at is setting a bad example of what t'e Gardenin Club is all about! And also now Bianca is mad at you for saying mean t'ings, and t'at is not okay, because you gave her a bad first impression of you, and now she's going to t'ink you are a mean jerk who says mean t'ings, which is! NOT! TRUE!"
Okay, so by the end of that little speech, she was actually yelling, but for the most part, she'd kept it under wraps pretty well.
She was angry that Holly had just blamed her for the terrible things that Qiu'li had done. Things that she still had nightmares about. And "post-trauma disorder-stress" or whatever it was that she'd talked about with Lynn. She was rightfully angry about that, because she hadn't killed those people, she'd never put anybody on meat hooks, and she had done her best to stop Qiu'li from doing any of that. Holly couldn't have done any better in her shoes.
And she was angry because Holly was yelling (with her word choice), and Bianca was yelling (with her voice), and she wasn't even sure WHY everybody was yelling! Who does that!? Who just walks into a conversation between two other people, makes pleasant small talk, then starts yelling a bunch!? And who just freaks out and grabs someone's throat for no reason because the first person was yelling a bunch!?
She was going to have a FIELD DAY with Lynn after this!
But first, she had to express the main reason she was angry.
Because it wasn't those things. She was angry because Holly was beating herself up and calling herself a bad friend. And worse, Holly was actively making her own life harder by doing that! It was, like Lynn had told her, before, NOT POSITIVE AND HELPFUL to beat yourself up! What if Bianca gets the wrong idea about Holly? What if she decided Music Club was going to fight Gardenin Club!? Carmim couldn't fight herself! That's IMPOSSIBLE.
It was very frustrating. But she was ready for this. This is the kind of test that Lynn had been preparing her for.
She was angry, but she was going to be angry in a healthy way, dammit!
LAIKA OF GS!
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Holly was in part beyond actually caring at this point. It just all sucked. [break] [break] When Bianca took hold of Holly’s Jacket, she did not resist the slightest at getting stopped in her tracks. Like a sack of sad potato, the pinkette just allowed Bianca to manhandle her. Even the fruit basket did not matter. It was just a stupid basket. Holly had ruined the first day of her club. Because she is horrible and does not seem to want other people to have nice things. She did not notice why Bianca had released her again, instead of punching her in the face. It did not matter. Holly could have taken one punch. Even that did not matter with aura. Even getting injured was a sham in this place compared to Rochdale.[break] [break] Holly had her back to Bianca as she shouted at Holly to woman up and to either explain herself or fight. Remaining the queen of downtrodden redheads, all that Holly said about the accusations and the challenge were: “It doesn’t matter if I explain it or we fight about it. You wouldn’t get it.” It was not even said in a bitchy tone. Bianca could not truly understand the horror of Rochdale. She was not there. She had not experienced it. Carmim’s plea to not be dumb was completely ignored. Nothing about how she felt was dumb to Holly.[break] [break] Holly would have said the following before Carmim told Holly to not think about Rochdale for now, the words still directed towards Bianca as Holly now turned around to face the other president.[break] [break] “What would it honestly matter if I explained things to you? You would understand that my life is shit, and Carmim’s life is shit. You would understand that we have seen and experienced things that changed us. You would feel sad, or not, and nothing about it will be actually done. You cannot take that hurt away, you cannot take all those memories away. You can try to move past them, but that is even more insulting.” [break] [break] She had tried moving past it, but Holly…she was incapable of doing it. The only thing that she had discovered to work was hoping that she would wake up and not think about it. As long as she was not reminded of Rochdale, she could think about other things. It was a game of emotional hide-and-seek at this point. If she did not think about it, she was more or less fine. If she got reminded of Rochdale, things were not fine. The worst part about it? It was not even fucking consistent depending on what triggered the memories.[break] [break] If Holly saw Kishka, she was reminded of the end of the night and how she did those things to get Holly to safety. She would feel gratitude and hopelessness. [break] [break] If Holly saw small children, she was reminded of the sight of Tommy with his brains blown out. She would feel anger and hopelessness. [break] [break] Just hearing Shadecloak’s stupid emotionless voice was grating to her ears. The voice of a murderer just acting like it was all just normal.[break] [break] Carmim, well… all that Carmim reminded Holly about two things.[break] [break] The Shed;[break] [break] Cold, dark, a body hanging from chains. Blood. Colton yelling. Jack and her trying to save a life. [break] [break] The Airship;[break] [break] Holly trying to save Carmim’s life while being exhausted. She managed to do it. She managed to save a life again.[break] [break] So many people died because of that one stupid mistake of Qiu’li and Carmim. Holly never really knew what to believe went down that night. Carmim said that she panicked or had done nothing, but…she was there. She was there to just look at it happen. She did not punch Qiu’li the moment it happened. She did not even try, didn’t she? In her mind, Carmim was unambiguously connected with the act that meant the end of Rochdale. It also almost meant the death of Carmim. Holly had only lost her friend because Carmim had not done what she needed to do and prevent this all from happening. Qiu’li is 90% at fault, but that 10 % that was caused by Carmim’s inaction in Holly mind… well…[break] [break] Was it irrational to think this way? Maybe. It was still how Holly thought about the whole event and Carmim’s involvement. Holly still stood in the room and about in the same place when Carmim gave her little speech about acting like a dick in front of a new friend and setting a bad example of the Gardenin Club and making Bianca mad. All of which was true. She didn’t have to shout to get all the reasons across why Holly sucks. She has internalized her own inferiority complex quite splendidly, thank you. A large part of her wanted to just walk back to her room, crawl under her bed, and just lay there for the next few hours.[break] [break] Still, something inside of Holly did not want to leave this like it was and walk away. It was mostly guilt towards Bianca, honestly. Holly knew how it felt when she started her club, even though it was a distant emotional memory. Bianca deserved a nice first day for her club, and Holly was a large part of why this was not a great day…but so was Carmim. Turning towards her…friend, Holly looked at the other small girl and started speaking.[break] [break] “You have gotten better. Still not the same, but better. You have been talking to Doc, or with some of the other teachers, right? Talking about what happened, and all that? Here is the difference between you and I. I have always talked about what bothered me, I have always discussed things and how they made me feel. Talking about Rochdale…it does not fix my problem. You want to know why?”[break] [break] Carmim…she did actually seem to be getting progressively better. At least, she appeared to be. Holly, she was not getting better. Not really. She was apparently just getting better at hiding the pain and coming up with ways not to think about it all at times, more so than she is able to process everything that had happened. The reason why she was unable? Well, it had to do with the fact that she just knew too many of the people who had died.[break] [break] “Tommy, Clementine, Marron, Trava, Rossani… People that I know in Rochdale, but a few of many whose names I learned. I got to spend time with them in the safehouse. I don’t know if you learned the names of anyone of Rochdale, or if you remembered… but those helped me. They helped me get supplies, helped me treat the wounded, helped me fight of Grimm. They helped me survive, as much as I helped them survive.”[break] [break] That is the downside of trying to emotionally connect with people…it kinda sucks when they get killed and you are left standing. There is a threshold for the number of people you know being dying within a certain amount of time, and loosing about two dozen people that Holly knew in Rochdale to a certain extent all in the span of a few days got to her. It might not be the same as losing a school friend who you knew for months, but for Holly, the people in Rochdale didn’t somehow matter less. They were people, she knew their names and things about them. And now they are gone. [break] [break] “All of them are dead. The people I survived the night with. I checked. I checked twice. For some…the people who died at Rochdale are a statistic…or…a collective loss. For me…I never really could care about groups of people that I do not know…but I can care a lot about individuals. And so many people that I had come to know and tried to have a connection with died in a single day. More than I have friends at school…more than I have family members. I don’t do lose very well…apparently. And in my heart, I lost too much with Rochdale…like it is a hole that cannot be filled…not really. Talking about it more? That just opens the wound. None of them wanted this. They weren’t bad people who lived a life of violence. They were good people, and now they are all dead.”[break] [break] Now turning back towards Bianca, the pinkette seemed to offer another apology for ruining the start of her club. She kept her head low as she spoke, it seems to be the only gesture she could muster to admit any form of outward regret.[break] [break] “This whole thing…it is nothing against you…I don’t really know you…and this is not your problem. Carmim joining your club is just more change. More people slowly moving away from me. I made my problem your problem, and I am sorry for that. If you want to hate me, that is fine. Enough people do.”
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Post by Bianca Sabbato on Apr 26, 2020 8:22:00 GMT -5
I absentmindedly let Carmim (Bless her soul) Separate me from the other girl, even if I didn’t the redhead’s grip on me felt so strong it was not a matter of choice in the end.
I immediately wanted to hit her again when she came up with that “You wouldn’t get it mom, this is not a phase it’s who I am” nonsense... Like she was some kind of teenage drama queen instead of a huntress in training... Well, she was a teenage, kinda. But still...
Still. As she was about to actually surrender to my demands and explain herself, I respectfully let her go on with her discourse... Until close to the very end, where I couldn’t help but making a very senseless, very rude quip, but nonetheless, maybe a necessary one.
-The only insulting thing is reducing people to being no more than their deaths. Ignoring everything great, and everything not so great about their lives just because you decide their demises were more important to you-
I reached for her face, but not violently as to not be stopped by the redhead with surprising strength for her small frame. —It is good manners to watch people in the eyes when you’re talking to them- I spoke in a clear and honestly kind of authoritarian way, but not a cruel one, never a cruel one.
-Yeah, I know. I knew people who had to go because one day someone felt like it. People disappearing like as if swallowed by the land itself. People who to this day only lives on my memory, whom are forgotten and discarded by a system that wouldn’t even grace them with a grave and a demise date-
Too many to count them, even one was too many. But they were specters that would keep me company for the rest of my life in the cold, lonely nights and the brightest, more warmth filled days.
-People who helped me survive, who were nice to me; not always good people, but not always bad. And some people I hated too but that didn’t deserve to die. People that deserved to die but not in the way they did... Breaking news princess. No one deals well with loss- I would know that for sure, even if I tried to hide it, to bury it behind an easy smirk and a “cool gal” attitude... Some things just never go away.
-You can not want to talk about them. But sadly your brain and your heart don’t give a damn about what you want or don’t want to think or feel- Giving a step back, I allowed the pinkette some room to breathe, choosing not to get in between her and Carmim.
-I won't try to solve your problems because, as you said. They are not mine. I won't tell you to cry and scream and beat something, I neither will tell you to express your feelings or suppress them like certain bitch I know... I won't pretend that I’m not pissed at you and that I won't close the club for the day and go to my room to fume in peace- After all I was no psychologist, and even if I were, every mind and person is its own word, and I had no right to tell her she should start feeling better than she was.
-I honestly don’t know what to tell you because if feel like you are not even listening. But I really hope you do, because here in Carmim you seem to have someone willing to actually put up with your shit and you are trying to make her go away... I...- I didn't know when it happened, but my coarse voice and the slight coat of salty liquid covering my eyes came as a shock to me, to the point I had to stop for a second to compose myself.
-I had been in some shitty situations before just like you, emotionally I mean... Do you know how much I would have given to have a friend to at least hear what I had to say?- Unashamed, I used the border of my coat to clean a stray tear that had graced my cheek... Fuck, there goes my reputation now.
-What do you think? That I will hog her up to myself? Convince her to leave your club? Do you even know me to think I’m such a bad person?- No matter how bad she was feeling, she was being unfair both to Carmim and to me, so I wouldn’t let it go unmentioned.
-Nevermind that, Carmim won't leave your club, if she tries to do so, well then she can kiss the music club goodbye as well... And you, if you want to really make it up for me, I already have an idea in mind... You said it yourself, you made this my problem, so now we are going to fix it- I said fixing a serious look at both the girls before me.
-If you are really sorry, I want you to be here at least 2 times a week for an hour minimum. I will teach you how to read a music sheet and you will pick a fucking instrument and come here to play it along with your friend Carmim and stop being a bitch whose apologies are as meaningless as a drop of rain in the ocean-
It was an unorthodox solution, but at the time it was the only thing that came to mind... After all, this girl had committed no worst sin than to be a little rude to me and Carm. And as a huntress in training, it was my duty and obligation to help people in need, whoever they were.
-People fuck up sometimes, but wallowing in despair helps no one, neither you and certainly not the people around you... So if you feel like you fucked up big time, I won't take that away from you... But if you did, it is your duty to fix things. And to do so the first step always begins with ya-
If giving back to society meant to extend a friendly hand to Holly Hooker here, so be it.
-Believe me girl. I have been there, first step to social rehabilitation is finding someone to love, something to wait for or something to do in the meantime... I cannot provide you with the first ones. But I’m damn sure you could use the last, if you are willing to give me a choice and you feel truly repentant-
After all... Everyone deserves a second chance... Right Bianca?
Despite her many flaws, letting other people speak their mind without interruption was not one of Holly’s shortcomings. No matter how close or aggressive Bianca became, the pinkette allowed the Faunus to gush with her anger. She had a right to be angry after what Holly had done just now. She had a right to call her a bitch for ruining the first day of her club. A right to be mad, certainly. [break] [break] But when Bianca started to lecture Holly…[break] [break] …and make claims like she did about Holly despite her trying her darndest to try and not make this personal…[break] [break] …well…[break] [break] Holly was standing motionless after Bianca removed her hands from Holly, and she was standing motionless all the while the other girl spoke. Holly’s pink hair fell mostly over her face and what could be seen was only a dull expression. Her voice spoke out softly, breaking the silence.[break] [break] “…you think that not loving enough is my problem?”[break] [break] It began with a chuckle. A dry expression someone would give after hearing a bad joke. It did not stop with this though. One chuckle became a chortle as Holly’s body reacted more violently to the emotion. Her chest began to heave, as her breathing became more irregular as she kept on laughing now. It was not a joyous laugh, and it was not even one out of spite. It went on for a few seconds interrupted, and it became clear enough that the response was both involuntary and painful. Her arms grasped her stomach in an attempt to control herself, but it was in vain. The moment that Holly was able to get out anything else than this howling laughter, she was shooting daggers with her eyes at Bianca. Her tone was out of breath and in discomfort. [break] [break] “My first….the first boy I ever loved tried to shoot himself in front of me..”[break] [break] Taking another step towards Bianca, Holly continued speaking despite the pain.[break] [break]v “…the second boy I loved…abandoned me…and couldn’t even love me…”[break] [break] Regardless if that was the full truth of the matter, this was the state of mind the girl was in as she took another small step towards Bianca. She was bending over slightly as her arms were still clasped around her own frame trying to keep that stupid laughter in check.[break] [break] “Every day…my semblance…it requires me to give my heart to my plants…while…while every night I cannot keep the images…everything…I cannot keep them from returning... to... to…”[break] [break] A heavy chuckle interrupting the girl speaking, as she tried to take a moment to keep this damned laughter under control. They could not even understand why it was funny in the first place! Now that Holly stood almost directly in front of Bianca, the other girl could see that beyond the near-hysterical laughter, Holly was now also crying. Well, when you open those bad emotional floodgates again, everything seemed to come out at once. Having taken a few more moments to get over another laughing fit, Holly seemed to have regained her senses enough to straighten her back and look Bianca in the eyes. A mixture of desperation and hurt was hiding within those magenta spheres.[break] [break] “My love is like poison…it just harms everyone… strangers, the people I love, but mostly myself… I need it…I need to love…but it only causes pain…to keep open my heart…but…”[break] [break] And just when someone thought this was ever going to have a happy ending, she continued after a brief pause by spitting at Bianca’s feet.[break] [break] “…I would still rather carve out my heart than let you ever tell me how to love. Take Carmim…keep her away from me…and let me bleed out in peace, you dirty garter snake.” [break] [break] It would have been far more badass to just leave it like that and walk out of the room, but Holly’s body was never really fond of dealing with huge body wrecking emotional responses, and her legs were not really doing what she wanted. Holly wobbled for a moment, and if Bianca would still stand where she stood…the Pinkette’s legs would give out and she would stumble about right into the Faunus’ arms or against her body. [break] [break] At least Holly keeps up the tradition of falling for people who are bad for her health. Though more often than not, this was not a physical danger as Bianca could now be. Good going Holly, you are a dick and a racist! [break] [break]
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Post by Bianca Sabbato on May 2, 2020 16:30:26 GMT -5
I silently listened to the girl’s tirade. She had been graceful enough to do the same for me, so it was the least I could do.
Well, I at least was happy to hear her out until her words and actions started to turn into such a... Disturbing display.
I worried when she started laughing. I felt concerned when she started talking, by the time she started slowly walking in my direction I’m not ashamed to admit I felt afraid. I was having genuine goosebumps while trying to judge if the girl was actually going to attack me. With a semblance so powerful as hers, even a lonely seed on her pocket could turn into a deadly weapon, so I mentally readied myself to try to take her down with my bare hands if needed be.
Then I noticed she was crying, and any toughs of hurting her left my mind like sand washed over be the waves.
Somehow I felt like I had made a big mistake but deep inside It didn’t feel like it was my fault... She had come to my club and started all that shit, and even if what had happened to her was a sad ordeal. It was not as if I was obligated to know every page of fucking first year Haven students lore to give an opinion based both on what she herself had told me and what I had seen from her erratic behavior.
But when I looked in her eyes, I saw a sadness so profound, that I knew I should have put my feelings aside and take hold of the girl that clearly needed help so desperately. She even looked like she was going to fall at any moment, so after shooting a concerned look at Carmim, I gently started extending my arms in her direction to catch her if she ended up fainting.
Only to be rewarded with a ball of spit impacting into my left foot and the girl uttering a final insult before having the guile to collapse over me.
Shocked. I let her head fall numbly over my shoulder, with no part of my bode even concerned in trying to catch her if she fell but for (Ironically) My tail, which wrapped around her waist as to not let her fall into the ground if she slipped from my frame.
I think it struck me so bad, because from the fist time things were beginning to make sense in a way. Both her reluctance and her passive aggressive behavior towards me.
-Oh...- I said, my voice starting to crack under the pressure of the girl’s warm body and cold words. —So that’s the reason why... Is that why you hate me then- Now it would be the time to start chuckling and laughing like she had done seconds before. But sadly that didn’t roll with me, I was not one to easily express my feelings, at least not when I wasn’t alone.
-What was I supposed to do?- I asked, not really expecting an answer from her part. — You entered here, and I was nothing short of nice to you even when It was abundantly clear that you didn’t like me since the first moment you saw me... And then you start making trouble and starting shit, I offer you a fight if that’s what you seek and you say no; I offer to help if that’s what you need and you say no... Am I to believe you just came here to bully me, Hock? Because it sure feels like it right now...-
It hurt not because I was not used to that kind of treatment, nor because I had not developed a skin as tough as my scales to bear it. Yes... My scales. A phrase that to some people would be nonsensical to the point that they wouldn’t even think about having or feeling such an intimate relation with something like that... And they were not “my tail’s scales”. No, that would be pretending it was a separate entity from myself. But MY scales.
It hurt because I realized I had tried to give her a second chance when now it was abundantly clear I myself hadn’t been given a first one to begin with.
Some ugly toughs slipped into my mind... She poured her heart into her plants each day by her own admission... Truly, how easy could it be to me to pass by the gardening club and activate my semblance. I wouldn’t even need to set foot inside, just getting close by should be enough to feel the earth that housed the plants like I could feel the length of my hair or the surface of my fingertips... And in the blink of an eye, erase them from existence.
Calmer toughs... Happy toughs... I told myself I should guard myself in them, but it felt like I barely had known any happy toughs since the day they left so many years ago...
Thinking happy toughs didn’t help, so I tough about sad toughs instead, about bloodshed and extortion, about hunger and cold and loneliness. About being used and endangered for a plate of cold soup and harsh bread. I tough of everything I could be but I wasn’t thanks to Haven and the people that decided to thrust in me.
Finally, that line of thought seemed to calm me down, even if doing so forcefully. Out of curiosity I reached for my earth with my semblance but find none, every usable particle of soil already pushed well beyond my control zone.
-Good job Bianca... Smart girl... Even if you deny it, you were always a smart one where it counted- I slowly reached for my back with my right hand, passing it over Holly and literally patting myself in the back for my foresight.
-It’s nice to have someone that cares for you, even if it’s just yourself... Like, truly, who else could it be?- I exclaimed retreating the hand from my shoulder and using it to gently pat the girl in the head, my fingers running trough her hair in a manner as comforting as I could manage in my haze.
-I think this experience served as an eye-opener for me... What a stupid bitch I was... A music club, friends, fun... What a joke- People are nothing but tools at the end of the days, things you use for your self gain, even the so called friends are nothing more than emotional clutches and cheap entertainers. —As if someone like me could have things like that... I need to go take some fresh air. Music club is closed for the day. I cannot stand to see you right now, but my offer still stands, as little as you may deserve it... By the way, Carmim is not an object to take and keep, it would do good on you to remember that-
Releasing Holly, I let her go without a care if she ended falling into the ground once she hadn’t a body to lean on, Carmim was still there, after all. Wordlessly, I took my violin, put it in its case and left it in a nearby locker. Fishing the keys out of my pocket I threw them over the chair I was sitting on moments before. Last one to exit would have to close shop.
Before I went away, I dedicated some final words to the pink haired girl before I was entirely out of the door. -Your problem then it’s not that you love to little or too much Holly. But the way the others love you in return, or what you expect of them...- Yes, more often than not, that seemed to be the problem.
Feeling like a steeping mat, I made my way to the quad, silently hoping someone would come to keep me company. Like always, a lot of bark and none of the bite. Letting people walk all over me as much as they wanted.
HAVE YOU SEEN HER? HAVE YOU HEARD? THE WAY SHE MOVES, THERE ARE NO WORDS
Did nobody listen to her?
It felt like neither of the other girls in the room were listening to a single word that she was saying. Which was really annoying, and very frustrating! She couldn't even get a word in edge-wise as they continued bickering and arguing and yelling at each other over and over again.
She was a little offended when Holly said that her life was shit, though. And that Holly had said the same thing about herself, for that matter- neither of their lives were shit, they both had great lives! Valuable, important, lives! Just like everybody else.
Sure, it wasn't easy being either of them. Holly had told her long ago about her island, and growing up there without a whole lot of stuff, and all the struggles she'd endured. She knew about Holly's hardships since coming to Haven- or at least, the ones Holly had told her about anyways. And she knew- better than anyone else- how tough her own life had been. Growing up in Vacuo is never easy, for anyone, and ever since the attack on Bulaani, it had been trial after trial- Argus, Midterms, Rochdale, Shadecloak... She hadn't had an easy time. Not at all.
But her life was good. Because she was alive. And Holly's life was good too, dammit.
And importantly, Holly was still saying really dumb, stupid, things that didn't make any sense. Like, she didn't know that Bianca's life wasn't hard! But she was saying she couldn't understand theirs, but the way she was saying it made it sound like she was also saying her own life was the hardest one? It was confusing. Holly was very confusing.
She then turned to Carmim and continued her stupid, dumb, speech, and her streak of talking about lots of stuff that she has no idea what she's talking about. She nodded, up until the "difference between you and I" bit, at which point she visibly frowned, glaring back at Holly. "I always talk about what bot'ers me too! And how I feel!" There was no difference, but it didn't seem to matter, because Holly and Bianca seemed fully intent on just being the loudest ones in the room and talking over and ignoring her entirely.
She started naming people she helped at Rochdale, and Carmim listened, even though she was still very mad at her friend. Carmim had gotten to know a few people, but they weren't very nice to her, and she'd never gotten their names, because they were too drugged up to remember them. They were dead. She knew they were, because she had checked. Holly wouldn't have known that, of course. Because Holly had been off hiding by herself for a long time after Rochdale. Just like Carmim, even. They were both closed off and not talking about things, and Carmim couldn't be held at fault for not talking to Holly about it until now, because Holly had also refused to talk to her about anything!
Because she was being dumb! And stupid, and annoying, and confusing, and dumb.
She snapped at Holly again, but it seemed nobody heard or paid her any mind. "I AM NOT MOVING AWAY FROM YOU!" Why was she so stubborn!? And dumb!
Her attention turned to Bianca, who was now crying, and lecturing Holly a bunch about how dumb she was being, which Carmim definitely agreed with, up until she started talking about how her leaving the Gardenin Club, and her posturing about how she'd kick her out of Music Club if she tried, which automatically moved Bianca straight up to the same level of dumb and not knowing what she was talking about as Holly.
"You do not get to decide t'at for me eit'er!" Her tone was decidedly irate, as she rubbed her temples. This was very annoying to deal with! And it didn't help that she just kept going, and also gave Holly the ultimatum to join the Music Club...?
WHY WERE THESE CLUB MEMBERSHIPS SO IMPORTANT!?
It was ridiculous. It was stupid, and dumb, and ridiculous! It was totally crazy! And none of it made any sense!
Then Holly started laughing all crazy, like how Aegle did, except she was never annoyed with Aegle when she did it, like she was right then, at Holly, so it was considerably more obnoxious and irritating. And it got worse at the end of her speech, when she told Bianca to take her away, and "protect" her from Holly.
She started to protest again, but before she could, Bianca went in again, talking at her, as Holly flopped over into the faunus's chest. It was upsetting that Bianca seemed to take this entire experience as a focal point for some self-loathing. Maybe it was hypocritical to think about it that way, considering how often she, herself, went onto binges of self-deprecation and pity-partying, but it was so much more infuriating for someone else to start doing it! And it was even worse that she managed to throw in that last bit about "Carmim isn't an object," considering she had just been talking like the little redhead wasn't even there!
Then, before Carmim could get another word in, Bianca just walked away, nearly dropping Holly, before Carmim managed to grab her, catching her easily, and watching Bianca as the lizard girl left. "Bye Bianca. It was nice meeting you. I will play for you some ot'er time." Her words were quiet, and a little distant, as she tried to calm her thoughts.
She waited until the Music Club president had taken her violin and headed out the door before she addressed the pink-haired girl hanging limply in her arm on jelly legs.
"Get up." She wasn't giving Holly any choice in that matter, as she spoke those two words simply, pulling Holly firmly, but gently, to her feet, and holding her there, if needed.
"Stop being stupid. Stop it. You know t'at I am your friend, and you are really hurting my feelings by saying t'at you are not, or t'at I shouldn't be your friend, or in our club. I love t'e Gardenin Club! And I love you, Holly. You are my friend, even if you are a stupid-head dumb idiot dummy who says dumb things and also made my new friend upset for no reason." It felt good to vent her frustrations, honestly, even though she doubled back a second or two later, shaking her head and correcting herself.
"Okay, no, you are not a dumb stupid-head dummy. Even if you are acting like one! T'at was mean, I am sorry. And your head is not full of cabbages eit'er. I am just very frustrated because you never told me you felt like I wasn't your friend! Or t'at I was not supposed to join ot'er clubs! How was I supposed to know t'at, Holly!? I have only ever joined one club before, and your rules did not say t'at I could not join ot'er clubs! I t'ink. If t'ey do say t'at, t'en I am sorry, because I am not very good at reading! You know t'at!"
She pulled the other girl in for a hug, still supporting her body weight if Holly was still adamant on flopping over.
"Your love is not poison, it is good love. You are a good, nice, person, Holly, and if you say more bad t'ings about yourself, I am going to drag you to Lynn right now and she will give you taffy and make you stop being stupid and dumb. Also, you are going to apologize to Bianca tomorrow, and she is going to apologize to you! And don't you even t'ink of ignoring me talking to you right now, because I am not playing, Holly Hock!"
It was serious business time, dammit, and Holly was going to stop ignoring her! And she was going to stop being mean to herself, one way or another! She felt a little bad about just letting Bianca leave without addressing the bazillion issues she apparently had too, but she was just a normal girl who happened to see a therapist once a week, and that made her qualified to help exactly one friend at a time. Also, she was pretty sure Bianca would just say something else to make Holly angry again anyways, and that wouldn't be conducive to either of them remembering to not be terrible stupid mean thoughtless dumbass idiot cabbage-brains.
First step was making Holly apologize to herself. Then she'd make her apologize to Bianca!
It was a process.
LAIKA OF GS!
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Not falling to the ground would be nice in other circumstances. [break] [break] But not falling to the ground when you deserve to fall to the ground… well that makes you just feel like a jerk. You don’t deserve the support, but either through sheer happenstance or her own commitment, Holly had always people to fall open when it matters. She had people to talk to and who were genuinely to various extends concerned for her wellbeing. Bianca surely wasn’t one of them, but still Holly didn’t fall flat on her nose. Not even at this moment. She hung limp over Bianca’s tail as she was bombarded again with words that didn’t made her feel all that nice. Her body still trembling from that laughing fit, and it was now followed by coughing even though Bianca’s heartfelt comment about her just wanted to be a real girl with friends and clubs and being happy. [break] [break] Why was everyone just a reflection of how I was when I was happy?[break] [break] Well, I wasn’t really happy then either. Holly was never…well…truly happy in Haven. The moment that came closest recently was weirdly enough when Alice had hugged her….because that reminded her brain of a time when she wasn’t here. There are no rainbows in Mistral.[break] [break] No sunshine in the past.[break] [break] Only clouds in the present.[break] [break] The future will surely be thunder.[break] [break] All that Holly said about Bianca’s rhetorical allegations about racism or bullying was a simple phrase. [break] [break] “You… flatter yourself if you think I hate you for being a faunus…”[break] [break] Blaming this on racism was the easy way out. Did Holly truly hate Bianca the person? Well, not really. She hated that she might lose Carmim, but that was mostly her own fault for being a dick and Carmim for being a murdering sand gnome. Holly was fearful of losing Carmim a brightly enough pizza mascot that lured her into an alley or something goofy like that and then they would never see her again. The fact that Bianca was just the placeholder for whatever drove Carmim away from Holly was enough to hate her. Not even for who she is. That maybe was the worst part of this. Holly didn’t really cared for Bianca, or whatever faults she might think she had committed. Holly didn’t cared for Bianca’s little insecurities, or whatever past road she might have walked. For Bianca, the day that Holly Hock graced her club would most likely be an important day in her life to reflect upon and move past on her way to become a more secure and balanced person when she was able to ignore the comments of a racist lunatic girl.[break] [break] For Holly, it was just another event in a downward spiral of self-inflicted misery not of her own design.[break] [break] …It was also Tuesday.[break] [break] It took Bianca to head pat Holly to get her out of this internalised pity party for one and she blinked for a few moments after the fact. It was…nice. Holly, like a woman dying of thirst seeing a fountain appear in front of her, react like the sad-sack dying for attention and affection she was by actually enjoying the touch of a woman she just spat at. Not enough to untangle the twisted web of thorns piercing into her heart…but she liked it enough to genuinely enjoy it by giving a slight smile. Holly didn’t answer the line of comments and questioning before Bianca let go of Holly and fell into Carmim’s arms. Again, someone to catch her when she would have fallen. Another person who couldn’t just let Holly fall flat on her face. Bianca’s comment about Holly not being the problem was honestly just throwing oil on an open fire as now even the person who she was horrible against confirmed Holly’s delusions. She wasn’t the problem. Holly was just who she was, it was her whole environment that was wrong. Holly gave only a slight chuckle after hearing that and Carmim helped Holly back on her feet, seeming to be happy that Bianca was now somewhat in on the joke. Standing on her own two legs now with Carmim holding her, the pinkette hadn’t even noticed at first that Carmim was speaking against her. Holly looked blank towards the door for a few seconds before she fully registered her Vice-president. [break] [break] She…she just went on about how Holly was mean or stupid or not stupid but still mean and hurting Carmim’s feelings. Holly felt bad about doing that, honestly, but it was always…ugh…it was a pain to talk with Carmim. When Holly had just recently arrived from the island, she didn’t minded how her beloved vice-president spoke. She was just happy to have a friend. But now that Holly had other friends, and read books and could write, and just experienced so many horrible things in her life…[break] [break] …Carmim had just started to annoy her at some point in time. She didn’t even know if it began before Rochdale or not, but Holly definitely noticed it herself in the last few months. [break] [break] It wasn’t just how she spoke. It was…it was how she thought about things. It was…well, it wasn’t even funny. Carmim and her both came from what many people would call ‘nothing’. They didn’t have a formal education…or wealth…or even length on their side. And what did they do after they came to Haven?[break] [break] Holly started a club and tried to improve herself. She learned how to read and write properly rather quickly, and she tried to improve other things than just how she fought. She started a club, she tried to get into politics, she tried to become a better person who could do different things to help people. [break] [break] Carmim? She joined a club to get tomatoes. Carmim cared for the club, Holly was certain of that, but she never really found out if she was just in it for herself and being around Holly, or trying to actually feed people in need. [break] [break] While the pinkette called Carmim a friend…she couldn’t say that she could like…respect her for the person she was. Not really. Holly genuinely could say that she could respect Nasrin more than she could Carmim. She didn’t like Nasrin more, but Holly could respect her. Holly didn’t respect strength itself, but she could respect that attitude of people who wielded it. People who went their own path. Rose, Nasrin… Holly had a talk with Jackie about it in the library if you wanna know the thought-process of someone with Borderline personality disorder with superpowers.[break] [break] All of this was why when Carmim went in for a hug…a hug that Holly answered by hugging Carmim in return…she felt nothing for it. Bianca giving her that head pat? Holly genuinely felt more emotions from that, than from anything that Carmim had said combined with the hug. [break] [break] While she kept hugging Carmim, Holly started to cry. It wasn’t a loud sobbing. It were silent tears that had formed and were not slowly falling down Holly’s puffy cheeks. She knew…well…she just felt nothing from her friend trying to help her. And that nothingness scared her. Hating Carmim, loving Carmim… those were emotions. Not even caring about someone who is supposed to be your friend? That is…that is the void that is capable of opening fire on civilians no matter the damage you would inflict. That is the void that Holly wanted to dispel by trying to cling onto Carmim like a possessed madwoman. Because if Holly were to truly let go of Carmim, a friend that she once cared dearly for…what was keeping her from not doing it again? To not care for anyone when they fell out of favour? To not even hate or love, but to be indifferent. Holly…Holly didn’t want to let that void of nothingness get a grip of her….but could she honestly stop it? Could Holly Hock stop listening to her heart?[break] [break] She could not.[break] [break] She didn’t know how.[break] [break] While still keeping her frail body in the clutches of a cold embrace, Holly started to explain herself. Her voice was barely more than a whimper as she talked to an old acquittance from days of auld lang syne. [break] [break] “I can say sorry. To you, to Bianca. I can talk to Lynn, or Shadecloak, or the Gods… Maybe I will because you all deserve to hear those words. Maybe I will to keep me from being expelled. Maybe I will just to make you all shut up. I…I don’t know if you can understand me, but I will try to explain myself to you. You deserve that, more than an apology, because I don’t think that you do…and saying sorry will be meaningless if you don’t understand.”[break] [break] Still keeping herself pressed against Carmim for support, Holly wetted her lips before she began speaking. They…they were just dry. Nothing else. Talking a lot and crying does that to a person. [break] [break] “I am selfish. I care about doing good, because that makes me feel good. Feeding people, being kind to people…it makes my heart jump with joy. It is like getting a kiss from someone you love. Even now I can still feel some pleasure in being kind to most people. That is what drives me. Nothing else. I feared to lose you in my heart because that would mean that I am capable of doing that. To…”[break] [break] Letting out a long sigh, Holly actually considered not saying something that was on her mind and heart. [break] [break] “I need to accept… that despite me desperately trying to cling to it… I do not consider you a friend. I do not hate you; I do not love you. You exist in my life. We are in a club together, we have a common goal, I will not abandon you in that…but…but beyond that…”[break] [break] Holly allowed Carmim to read Holly’s teary face, to see her emotion, and let her know that beyond a shadow of a doubt she was speaking her heart’s truth. [break] [break] “I don’t think that I can care for you beyond that. It is who I have become…after everything…I… I have a hole in my heart where our friendship used to be. I do not know if I can ever fill that hole after…after everything. You do not deserve to live in a lie, and not know this. I am sorry…please find people who do care about Carmim Clover…because I do…I do not give a damn…it seems.”[break] [break] Tuesdays are the worse.
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