Post by Holly Hock on Jan 29, 2020 10:43:10 GMT -5
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[attr="class","RDcontainer"] [attr="class","RDcontent"] Ning Shen Kai Jie Tang [break] [break] Holly believed that it was the proper way to call the concoction that Holly had put in her body over an hour ago. Drank it, more precisely. Crushed it, boiled it, put it in a small cup. It was too thick to actually get down on its own, so Holly had diluted it with some water. It was a combination of almost every calming herb that Holly had in her inventory. It was a mixture that Qui’li had noted down as being the most effective blends Holly could make with all the herbs that he had recognized. Every individual herb already had a ‘calming effect on the spirit’, so the result of all of them combined in a body that in no way had the physical fortitude to protect against its effects? [break] [break] On the one hand barely anything, and on the other hand way too much. [break] [break] In comparison with the emotional dampeners that Holly had taken during her trip to Rochdale, her own homebrewed remedy didn’t even come close to shutting down the pain in her heart. With those damned dampeners, Holly barely felt anything at all. Almost no love, no hate, no joy, no sadness. At least for a little while. It was like you drowned out everything that made life worthwhile with a big wave of nothingness. Her own mixture? It did something, sure. Holly didn’t feel like she wanted to punch the nearest wall. Or go to her room to cry. It was a filter over everything, that held the worst excesses of her feelings at bay. [break] [break] It was more comfortable than the dampeners. She could at least feel something. It was also not what Holly had intended when she took this brew in the morning. She could still feel something. Holly had hated the effect of the emotional dampeners at the moment she needed to take them for the first time in Rochdale. She felt horrible as she used them. Like she was somehow a different person inside of her own body. A body she could control, but wasn’t really there. Like a pilot could fly an airship. In those moments, Holly didn’t want to have anything like that in her body ever again. [break] [break] Now she was desperately trying to replicate the effect. [break] [break] She played with the idea in her head for a few days after Rochdale. She needed to deal with hate, with tragedy, with a whole new range of emotions with such intensity that she couldn’t deal with it. She tried to listen to those emotions, and maybe that will still be what Holly needed to do in the end…but it was hard. Hard and exhausting. She barely slept. Couldn’t close her eyes for long. Couldn’t deal with the nightmares. [break] [break] Holly didn’t want to hate herself, or others, or anything for that matter. [break] [break] So, she sought a temporary escape. Just a few hours to give her emotions a rest. Not for long, just a moment. [break] [break] Ning Shen Kai Jie Tang had calmed her mind to some extent, not enough, but to some extent. [break] [break] Her body didn’t agree with it, though. Not at all. [break] [break] Holly didn’t know which of the ingredients had done it, nor did it really matter. Her stomach felt like it was on fire, multiple of her organs felt like they were on fire. It wasn’t cramps, or something like that, but it was a weird burning sensation that Holly was keenly aware about. Her entire skin was flushed, most notably her head. A head that was weirdly clear throughout all of this, like she was very much aware about everything that was happening inside her body. The girl was quite certain that she didn’t took anything dangerous enough to have her organs fail out on her, but she was still a bit anxious as she walked over towards the Quad. She wanted fresh air, she needed fresh air. She needed to be outside. There were too many people in-doors, busy with all the repairs. It was still a bit before noon, so everybody was still busy before any breaks or the like. Her own room was normally very nice and humid, but Holly’s body didn’t want this right now. Her body wanted the cold, maybe for the first time in her life. [break] [break] Stepping outside in the open, Holly breath in and out for a few moments, making her stand quite in the way right in the middle of one of the entrances to the Quad. She was wearing her standard white dress, which would normally be way too cold had she not her aura protecting her. Holly didn’t exactly feel the cold herself right now, even though it was nicer out here than it had been inside. She still felt warm, but it was more bearable right now. [break] [break] |
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